Friday, November 13, 2009 @ 7:52 AM
● freedom from me? freedom from you? whoever you are...?
since my other blog is now locked and no one except myself can access it, i will be posting some public posts here for you girls to check out. anyways, the streaming results are out already, and now more than ever, i finally feel the actual fact that we are not going to be in the same classes next year. its sort of like MJ's death, you know that he's dead but sometimes you just don't accept it and it's almost as if he's still here, but mentally you know otherwise, of course. so anyways, i just wanted to say a final goodbye to being in the same class as you girls. i feel that 2 years is definitely not enough to get to know someone. as in really get to know not just a"hi, bye" kinda thing. that's why i don't know many of you thaaat well yet, you know what i mean, i know you, we hang out and all, but do i really understand who you are and what you are feeling? I'm not so sure about that. all i can say now is that the past is the past and all we can do is to move on and if we didn't get to know each other well in these two years maybe we can get to know each other better in the years to come, we're still young, we're still in the same school, time's a plenty! but i can't help but feel a acute sense of wasted effort and feelings, but then again, all of this may just be me being a drama queen. no i don't think so. do you? do you even understand what I'm trying to say here? is my point getting across. ha ha, i don't even think i have a point. on the other hand, what is teen hood without its share of melodramatics and bad poetry? i can tell you, it will be quite empty without these two points, and also pretty meaningless. as are a lot of other things in life, i'm not pretending to be all wise and stuff, but i just have this gut feeling, this raw, untapped instinct that this is all pretty meaningless. don't bother to read till the end i tell you. stop right here! go no further! all there is left of these pointless shitty ramblings in disguise as a loving post has absolutely no significance anymore. and if any of you say, "wah chenny, why you so emo ah?", i will simply reply, "to tell you the truth, i have always been so emo, its jsut a metter if i want to show it or not."
so there. thanks for these two years
i will...
not forget them
that's for sure
chenny over and out
